Tomorrow would be the due date for the baby that I lost in October.
As much as I mourn that loss, I find myself having rather mixed emotions as the date approaches. I almost feel guilty for having any other emotion besides sadness and pain. I’m not dreading the day as much as I thought I would, perhaps I will be in for a surprise when intense and powerful emotions surface on the actual day.
To be totally honest, it would be easier to be absolutely sad if I was not pregnant yet. But I cannot stay in mourning when I have this growing new baby girl inside me to look forward to meeting. I know I am very fortunate in being able to move on and please know I am very thankful, but I will never forget the Baby I Never Met.
Rest in peace my sweet baby. Mama will always love you. Always.