Thursday, January 13th, 2005
Update - First (emergency) OB Visit
My blog was visited 20+ times after I wrote the previous post. And yet only two loving ladies cared enough to say a word of support and encouragement. Two. That is very sad. And hurtful. And wrong.
I will vent more about this on another post on another day.
. . .
After waiting 50 minutes in the office lobby, watching a bazillion hugely pregnant woman get called in and then come out, we (hubby & I) were finally called into the “little office”.
Wait another 20 minutes for the nurse practioner to show up.
She asked a bunch of questions regarding my medical/pregnancy history plus any and all other relavant info (I’ve not met her before) for another 15-20 minutes.
In the ultrasound room, she fiddled around with the pickle wand for 10-15 minutes and declared there is a vanishing twin (!!!!!), hence the bleeding. But she was not 100% sure and could not get a clear view of the fetal pole(s), so she wanted to discuss with and ask for my OB’s expertise.
We wait in the semi dark room. Didn’t know what to talk about. Long silence. 15 minutes goes by. It is now way past noon.
“I’m starving. Do you have any snacks?”
“No.”
“Well, can you go find out if there’s a vending machine, and please get me something?”
Off he goes.
Not even a minute went by, the OB came in, with the nurse practioner. OB positions pickle in me, we saw a baby. And a heartbeat!!! (Then enters hubby to the rescue with food & water) So we go over the baby and the heartbeat again. It was very nice indeed. One baby. Our baby!
And, there’s subchorionic hemorrhaging, he said. It’s the same size as the gestational sac, which is why the nurse practitioner thought it was “vanishing twins syndrome”. I think. I guess subchorionic hemotoma is the same thing?
There’s a 50% chance that I would have a healthy baby. The same chance for a miscarriage.
I will continue to bleed on/off for 1-4 weeks. On my Jan25 appointment they will do another ultrasound. That is, if the baby doesn’t come out before then.
I’m so scared.
on Thursday, January 13th, 2005 at 8:41 pm:
I am so happy to hear that the belly bean is still there and that there is a heartbeat. I know how scared you must be, I will be checking in and thinking of you. If you need to vent or anything my email is always open. (((HUGS)))
on Thursday, January 13th, 2005 at 9:01 pm:
Sending lots of hope and good wishes…
on Thursday, January 13th, 2005 at 9:37 pm:
I can totally relate to how you feel about your miscarriage. I lost a pregnancy this past October. It was ectopic, ruptured and was removed emergently. I only knew I was pregnant for one week before this happened, but it doesn’t matter. I ache for that baby none-the-less. Its only been a few months, but still when I see a baby or pregnant mother I can’t help but feel sad. I’m sorry you’ve had to endure so much and I truly hope that thing get better for you.
on Thursday, January 13th, 2005 at 11:33 pm:
Oh God hon…please hold on…I am praying for you and that little baby. I can’t stand for another one of us to lose a babe this early.
I’ll be saying lots of prayers between now and the 25th…and especially on the 25th. I so want at least one of us to get good news (and I’m out of the running).
on Friday, January 14th, 2005 at 4:07 am:
Good news!! I am very happy for you and I will keep my fingers crossed!
on Friday, January 14th, 2005 at 9:44 am:
I’m so glad to see everything is ok. At least maybe ok. Grrl over at www.chezmiscarriage.blogs.com posted about subchorionic hemorrhaging recently, if you want more information. I think it is different from vanishing twin syndrome.
I’m pulling for you and your baby.
on Friday, January 14th, 2005 at 10:25 am:
Wish I had commented yesterday - sorry, really. I just didn’t know what to say. Will be keeping you in my thoughts and thinking positive “hang in there baby” thoughts.
on Friday, January 14th, 2005 at 12:00 pm:
Sweetie -
Please forgive me for not keeping up with your blog. I do have a really good reason, but won’t bore you with the details.
I can only imagine how scared you were when you saw the blood. And now even though you saw the heartbeat, it will be maddening waiting until your next appointment. I don’t have any sage advice to offer, but want you to know that I am thinking of you and wishing you all the best.
Moogielou
on Friday, January 14th, 2005 at 6:15 pm:
Bad Penguin is right, Getupgrrl over at Chez Miscarriage has some info on this, and might be able to point you in the right direction of more. She had a panic too, but so far NBHHY (nothing bad has happened yet), and I really hope it is the same for you and that all is OK. I don’t know where the 50% comes from, but hopefully it’s nowwhere near that likely to end in miscarriage. Take care, thinking good thoughts for you.
on Friday, January 14th, 2005 at 6:20 pm:
Hi me again. Wishing I had checked grrl’s blog before I sent you over there- it’s not all rosy as I thought a minute ago but still, she has some good advice. Good luck.
on Saturday, January 15th, 2005 at 4:01 pm:
Hi,
I don’t think I’ve ever clicked on your blog and came here from Grrl’s site. I’m so sorry about your vanishing twin, so very sorry. I’m sending lots of prayers your way for your baby and hope that your pregnancy moves into a stress free area soon.
Emily
http://scrambledeggs.blogs.com/scrambled_eggs/
on Saturday, January 15th, 2005 at 8:24 pm:
Hi!!
This is my first time over here. I actually finally got a good link with your name! The other times I tried, I think I was typing “sweetsui” but nevertheless, I don’t blame you for being pissed off that people came here and read that you were bleeding and they couldn’t even type “thinking of you”………I think sometimes, people don’t know what to say.
I’ll tell you a story: I actually was reading what a bulletin board was saying about me (they had been following my second IVF and I could see on sitemeter who they were) and I was touched to read that they didn’t know what to say and none of them commented and they even asked each other if anyone had the nerve to say “i’m sorry” and one lady did and said she felt like it was a stupid thing to say………these were women who were crying - CRYING - for me and I have never “met” any of them on my blog. You are going through so much, try not to let it bother you.
I am thinking of you.
I have you listed on my “bloglines” now so I can keep up with your journal.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Take care.
on Saturday, January 15th, 2005 at 9:01 pm:
This is the most depressing blog i have ever read. My thoughts are with you and you child.
on Monday, January 17th, 2005 at 7:28 am:
Take care kiddo. We’re all pulling for you. I agree with another post that a lot of people are just at a loss for what to say in such a situation so they err on the side of caution (because the last thing they want to do is upset you further). Thinking of you.
on Monday, January 17th, 2005 at 10:44 am:
Thanks for your support, we will do this together and hopefully both end up with healthy, beautiful babies!
on Monday, January 24th, 2005 at 1:05 am:
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on Monday, January 24th, 2005 at 1:06 am:
This my first time around here, I usually dont leave comments in new blogs, but I had to here.
Dont worry, you’re baby will be with you till he/she comes out all well
And I’ll have you in my thoughts and wishes (whoever you may be)
It’ll all turn out just fine
on Wednesday, January 26th, 2005 at 1:38 pm:
Glad my comment had a good effect
And it shall turn out well, dont worry
Yes, i’m from malaysia, nearby Kuala Lumpur to be precise. So is your husband a Malaysian? and hehe r u too?